Running From God

This is the plan, Yahweh said
I don’t like this, I pouted
So I ran from God

Angry, anguished, anxious
My desires blinded me
Bitterness covered with empty pleasures

Comfort, control, cravings
My idols promised security 
I became what I worshiped

God brought the storm
Severe mercies plunged me to the depths
Yahweh opened my eyes

Doubt, defiance, despair
Washed away by trust
Undeserved grace wrapped me in love

Patient, present, pursuing
Hesed* never ending
Yahweh brought me back


*Hesed: the Hebrew word for the steadfast, loyal, covenantal love of God


See also: The Temple, In the Middle of Suffering